Friday, June 5, 2009

My Thoughts Today


(this family friend of ours died on the feast of the Sacred Heart of Jesus, May 29, which is why I chose this picture for today, his funeral day)
A good friend of my family died this past week. This man was only 64. He had 9 children, many grandchildren and was a beautiful example of faith. (not because of the children, but the way he lived) His funeral is today. Last night, I went to his wake. Because his family is so big, he's touched so many people in so many different ways. One daughter does daycare and her daycare children called him "Grandpa" because he was her sub. I was in line for 1 1/2 hours just to view him and go through the line of family.
This family's youngest son is my youngest brother's age, 23. Way back when my mom started homeschooling my brother (5th through 10th grade), our 2 families became good friends. My dad and this man got along great, always talking about our faith! They ate out together quite often, and visited weekly.
Well, since my parents have left our faith, they've kind of cut themselves off from everyone who is not a SSPX-er, (I blogged about it here) they will no longer go to an Norvus Ordo Mass (English Mass, or "New Mass" as they call it) so, it is not only sad to think about the loss of this family friend and the loss for his family (although he's in a much better place now) but it is sad to not see my parents there. To know they won't be there today, knowing that they would have been a few years ago. After a million "How are your parents doing?" 's last night, it is heavy on my mind and heart too. One man, half kiddingly called my dad a "heretic". Which is something my dad would have called an SSPX-er a few years ago too.
I think it brings my thoughts to when my dad dies. He has heart issues and well, if that happens before they come back in full communion with Rome, my mom will never come back either. How will things go at either of their funerals? Will their only friends be their new SSPX-er friends? What about all my dad's family who have never been to a Latin Mass? Will they even understand any of it (the situation, that it's not an approved Mass)? Will it be ok for me to go and not receive Communion? All these thoughts and so many more and so much hurt.
The other day, my mom said "Jamie, we still have the same devotions as we've always had." I said "What about Divine Mercy mom?" She said, "We have the Sacred Heart, it's the same thing." I should have said "We have both." But argued a little instead (it's in my nature) "See, you don't have the same devotions and they're not the same thing!"
This man, died on the traditional feast of the Sacred Heart. Is that not proof enough that the Holy Father is right? It is not for them. It is for me.
May his soul and all the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God rest in peace.
Amen.
Darn it! Where did my paragraphs go? Really, I had nicely spaced paragraphs....so sorry! This Blogger won't let me do it!

12 comments:

  1. Jamie-I am so sorry for your loss and that this continues to lay so heavy on your heart as it would on mine. You are all in my prayers!

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  2. Just praying for you, Jamie. I have no answer, only prayers that all will right itself.

    As for the paragraphs, it annoys me, too. Half the time, I go into html section and MAKE them happen the way I want them. It takes me a lot more time, but I'm picky like that. A lot of times I've already written everything, then when I add pictures it throws everything off again. UGHH! I'm in agreement.

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  3. I wondered if you knew them. I'm so sorry for his family, and for yours. I know how difficult it is to have a family member turn their back on their religion. I pray for them every day, and several months ago I added your parents to those same prayers.

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  4. Wow. What heavy burdens you are under just now. Prayers for you and for the repose of the soul of your friend.

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  5. Hugs, my dear, hugs galore. We have every reason to hope for their return. St. Paul said to REJOICE! We have to keep on keeping on . . . with prayer, with devotions, with HOPE.

    Many prayers being said for y'all.

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  6. I am lucky my parents are both faithful as well as my inlaws.

    Just wondering why your parents still did not go?

    It is so hard. I can "read" the pain in your blog.

    Like the other gals I would pray.

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  7. My heart is breaking with you. I pray that a scenario like this will no longer be in our future. Maybe this man can send a little help from heaven.

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  8. I'm sorry for your pain, Jamie. Clearly the pain your parents have caused makes this death harder for you -- all the "what-ifs." It would help for you to talk to a priest about your parents -- at least those questions can be answered.

    About your paragraphs -- go to your blogger settings and check under formatting -- you might need to click on a yes where it currently says no.

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  9. Jamie, I just read your post and my heart goes out to you! I want you to know I am thinking of you, dear friend and I am praying the rosary for this man and his family, for you, baby, your family, and the heartbreaking situation you wrote about!

    You know what? I am going to offer up my pain and suffering of the endometriosis and infertility (I just took another pregnancy test and it was negative again!)for a healthy baby and Mom (You) and for the conversion of your family members! Maybe some good can come from this, yes?

    Have you ever heard of Marilyn Shannon and her book "Fertility, Cycles, and Nutrtion"? She just came out with a 4th edition with some very helpful info on nutrtion, what vitamins/supplements to take, ect. on a variety of different infertility conditions. It looks like I am doing a lot of the right things, but the rest is up to God. My Mom tells me I need to trust in God more and pray more. Sometimes when I feel sad and discouraged I don't pray the rosary every day. I need to pray it more.

    I am wondering if I can encourage and help others by recommending this book to others and maybe having a little contest where someone can win this book on my blog? What do you think?

    Thinking and praying for you!

    May God Bless you!

    Love,
    Maria :)

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  10. hugs jaimie. this has to be very hard, but you must put it in God's hands.
    praying for the repose of the soul of your friend.
    and that is a beautiful image of the Sacred Heart. i just love it!

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  11. Jamie, I am so sorry for the burden and sadness this is causing you. It is never easy when we are at odds with those we love so much. And the closer the relationship, the harder it is. Continue to pray, as I'm sure you will. And Barbara's advice about talking with a priest about some of your questions is excellent. Perhaps his counsel would give you some increased peace ... All of you are in my prayers. {{hugs.}}

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  12. Jamie, I am so sorry. Your concern and prayers are working I am sure.

    I am also sorry for your loss. I just loss my mom last month on May Day. Loosing someone you love is hard and not seeing those you love at the funeral is harder.

    God bless

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